Various Lessons Learned

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I am so overwhelmed and happy about what i am doing now.Lots of lessons learned and lots of ideas are being sent to me via the Online Mentoring Club of Jomar Hilario. I can’t wait to put all my ideas and thought in writing and blogging about it.
I guess i need more time to do it. I know at the moment i have lots of time in my hands but in 3 weeks time my hands will be full of visitors so i better start blogging now and reading all those lessons.

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CONFIDENCE

I am still at a lost of whether i should submit my assignment already. It seems there may be something wrong somewhere. I also did some revisions to my powerpoint and my pdf documents. Its good i was able to update them. I have completed my oDesk and have been certified oDesk ready. Imagine i had to print all the pages in the test coverage. Good thing i did that because now i can just flip through the pages when i have questions.
I also tried applying for a job but then i chickened out when i was about to click the “apply job” button.
I guess i need someone to boost my morale on this. Since i feel i have only little knowledge on computers and web designs and all.
I hope one day i can gather all my confidence and do it!

Life and Love

I am a Mom of three boys ages 20, 19 and 17.

24 years ago we were told that i won’t be able to have one.

I married the man of my dreams. We were married when i was 26 years old. We had planned our wedding  – and it was perfect. Every detail was executed and we were happy about it. We both had promising careers in front of us. And so we planned our new life together. I told myself that i should have my first child by age 27. And would space it in such a way that it is well planned. Two months after our wedding , i was pregnant already. We were so happy that our plans were falling into place. But then a month after, i had a miscarriage. Our hopes were not dampen with that first fall. We tried again and true enough i was again pregnant after a month. In order to make sure that my pregnancy would be a success, i requested from my boss a leave of absence for the remainder of my pregnancy. They allowed me to go on leave and take a rest. But then after a month, i had spotting and bleeding again. It was my second miscarriage that year. We were so down and frustrated. And to top it all, the doctors said that we won’t have any babies because our chromosomes might not be compatible. We asked ourselves a big “WHY” when everything was A-OK from the start. And so we decided to enjoy ourselves first and concentrate on our careers. We were enjoying our honeymoon stage and our new life as a new couple. Until people were now wondering if we had plans on having a family of our own soon. This pressure from other people made us so frustrated every month when i would have my period.

We keep on trying and trying but to no avail. Two years after, i missed my period so i went to see my OB, and my urine sample tested slightly positive. So the OB advised me to take a complete bed rest. I again requested from my employers for a leave of absence. And they allowed me. I was in bed for 2 months -complete bed rest means you can only make a pee right next to your bed and no physical exertion is allowed. So in bed i prayed the rosary, made novenas to all the saints and prayed and prayed until i would fall asleep. This happened everyday for 2 months. After two months of being in bed, my OB said that i need to visit her and have a ultrasound. We were so excited for the ultrasound but then our joy was changed to sorrow when the OB declared that i was not pregnant at all and that she saw a cyst instead of a fetus. I was so dumbfounded and so frustrated that i wanted to run and run and run to nowhere. I had so many questions in my mind. I was so depressed. My third fall.

But then we had to move on with our lives. We forgot about trying and trying to have a child.
We spent most of our weekends out of town. One weekend we went to Manaog Church in Pangasinan to visit Our Lady of Manaog and make our fervent prayer and request for a child. After visiting the church, we went to La Union.We went jogging by the beach, then suddenly i realized that i did not have my period. But then we dismissed the idea and still went about we our vacation.

When we arrived in Manila, i went to see my OB and lo and behold, i was confirmed pregnant.  9 months after i gave birth to a healthy and handsome baby boy. That was Feb 3, 1991.Then again 11 months after i again gave birth to another handsome and healthy baby boy – Jan 22, 1992. And again after a year and a half on Nov 22, 1993, i again gave birth to a healthy and handsome baby boy.

These were clear manifestations to me and my husband that God has a plan for us and that His plans may not be in accordance with our plans and that His plans will be unfolded to us in His time.

Its Amazing







The video started with piano keyboards and musical pieces. Then the picture of a kid and a teenager. Those scenes reminded me of my childhood. My Mom is a piano teacher. Her students come to the house for their lessons. I was also one of her students. Usually my time slot was between 6 pm to 8 pm. I learned how to play the piano at an early age. I joined her piano recitals. But deep within me i was not convinced that i can play the piano very well. So my Dad thought of a good idea. Why don’t we pay Mom for my lessons so that i could be serious. But unfortunately even that did not push me to work harder on my lessons. Then i told them that i wanted to learn how to play the guitar. So they enrolled me for guitar lessons. I was able to play the guitar but then after so many lessons i told myself i was not into guitar playing. Then i again enrolled myself in dance lessons -from Hawaiian lessons to jazz lessons.After so many lessons i had to quit again. I wanted to excel in the Arts but i guess in everything i do i wasn’t excelling.


So starting on something and not being able to excel on that made my self confidence on the Arts deep down so low.I thought i had no talent at all.

Then came my dashing, understanding, patient husband. He is full of praises for me. He believed in me. He inspired me to do something that was in me. When my friends invited me to join them in their painting lessons, he supported me. Everytime i would come home from my painting lessons, he would critique my work – he said good things about it. During the time when we had a painting exhibit, he was so proud that he informed his officemates and gave out flyers for them to see the exhibit. He is my no 1 fan.
Now with his encouragements and support, i was able to make a lot of paintings.

Here are some of my works of Art:



Enjoy!

Smile – it makes the world go round!

While watching this video,

 it reminded me of the song:
” Smile an everlasting smile, a smile can bring you near to me”
A smile is very contagious, if someone smiles at you – you either make a twitch, smile back or look behind you to check if that person is really smiling at you.
A smile can make a gloomy day look perfect.
A smile can make a crying little boy stop crying.
A smile can make a grouchy person become mellow.
A smile can uplift other people’s thoughts and can make the world go round.

Just looking at the smiley face above can make you smile.
Smile when you wake up, smile when you brush your teeth,smile when you are in the bathroom, smile when you look into the mirror ,smile when you walk out of your house, smile when you are in your car, smile when you enter your office and smile when you greet your boss. Try doing these things and it will start a brand new beautiful day.

A Beautiful Smile

A beautiful smile
falls ‘cross your face
When you are happy
or full of grace.
A beautiful smile
fills your eyes,
When you’re contented
 or surprised.
A beautiful magic
attends your soul,
When you have spoken
 of love untold.

A beautiful poem about SMILE. And it says that with smile comes encouraging words. Words that we can use to uplift us or encourage other people. When we say beautiful things to other people, or when we compliment other people. There is a two way magic in those words. We feel encouraged and at the same time we encourage other people. Try encouraging someone and it will make you smile deep within you.

BELIEVING IN MYSELF

After listening and watching this video:



I had to quickly write my thoughts. Caroline Casey had a very convincing talk. Sometimes, we really need people like her who can go beyond the odds in life. Its so hard to think that they can do it. But when reality strikes and we need to really do something for ourselves we need to hear motivational talks like this. It encourages one to think beyond the ordinary. To do something. To soar the heavens with things that we haven’t done in our life. Sometimes it scary. We think of what other people will say. We are afraid that we will be criticized or that people who love us will reject us. Or that we may be threading on an unknown path.
I did what i had to do five years and seven months ago. My husband had a job assignment and it would entail that the whole family would be relocated. We would be starting a new life here – an unknown place and with people we haven’t even met. The kids would go to a new school and all – a new life for our family. We had to packed our things and venture into the unknown. I for one had to give up a lot of things – my comfort zone in Manila.
After being a homemaker for 6 years, i ventured into a new career – teaching at the prestigious University of the Philippines College of Pharmacy and i also was about to finish my Masters Degree in the same university – my alma mater. Then all of a sudden i had to make a crucial decision in my life and of our family. I had no choice but to follow my heart. So we left for Jakarta Indonesia and started a new life.
My new life here in Indonesia is full of blessings. God so generously gave us what we needed and at times more than what we expected. Life is good.
Windows and doors where opened.
I for one, discovered that there are things and talents in my life that i had never known.
One afternoon, my friends told me that we were enrolling in a painting class. I was shocked but did not show it. Whatttttt meeeeee, doing painting? Yah, i painted the walls of our house before but it was more of just painting using a paintbrush and with one stroke – in fact i just used a roller brush to do all the painting. So i was really afraid to venture into this new field. And besides, i was confident that i did not have any talents other that being a MOM to my three sons and a wife to my husband.
So when the day of the painting class came. i found myself seated and was doing a pencil sketch of my left hand. Then after the class, i was starting to become confident of what i was doing. I couldn’t believe my eyes. I had in front of me a beautiful sketch of my left hand.Twas a very beautiful hand. Then the next class came – i had to do a sketch of fruits and then color it with pastel crayons. As usual i was so afraid that i might do something different or that i might not be able to color it the way it should be colored. But again, after the class i was so happy with myself – its was a very attractive bowl of fruits. I was not gaining confidence on what i was doing. My husband even commented that i had talents that were not being discovered.
Then suddenly i had to go to Manila for an operation. The doctors found out that i had a thickening uterus that  might be cancerous and that they need to do a D&C on me. So i left for Manila and submitted to the procedure. In the meantime, my painting class was also about to start on painting on canvass using oil as the medium. After my operation, i was reluctant to start painting. Again i was afraid. My friends were already way ahead – i was just about to do my first still life painting of oil in canvass. The moment i took my brush – there was no stopping me now. I whisk away with my brush and even my teacher was amazed on how i was able to do it. He didn’t know that i had to say a little prayer in my heart before i started painting. All i said was “To God be the glory” and He allowed me to experience an outpouring of the Holy Spirit.

After this painting, i was able to gain so much confidence that i already joined 3 painting exhibits here in Jakarta and have almost 25 paintings to date of flowers, gardens, women and doors. My house is now like a gallery of my paintings.
We can really do things that we have never ventured before. We need to give our very best in all th things that we do. And we need to believe in ourselves – For With God, all things are possible.
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